The gap is wider

Lonesome...this feeling always crops up when I am having my menses. I feel that there is a gap inside me...and the gap is getting wider. I've been trying to reflect to find the causes...but the answer seems nowhere to be found.

I've been telling what I like but no effort is done to please me ... on the contrary it has always been me to have to please ...

Why must I be afraid to voice out what I want? Why must I be afraid of getting scolded? Why am I too fragile emotionally? Why can't I be firm and determined to do what I like? Don't I deserve to be allowed to hang out with friends? Why didn't I try to voice out what I want? Why must I bear the boredom?

People are giving me attention. Not that I don't like but I am afraid to enjoy the attention given.
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